One Year Older, Many More Boulders
I am officially an adult... There are no more age limit ultimatives unless you count running for president or renting a car in some places. Yep, no way around it, I am an adult. Those four little words may not mean a lot to some, or might scream independence and freedom for others, but for me those words scare me to DEATH! I am not sure what scares me more, the physical responsibilities or behavioral expectations. Admittedly, though I am an adult in age, I have been blessed with a transitional ease into adulthood while I am a student. This is something I have immense gratitude for because I see many people my age handling unimaginable amounts of responsibilities and burdens. Still, the cloud of student loans, bills, my career, future family, and financial struggles loom over my head. Every aspect of growing up brings with it new challenges, insecurities, and fears. After all, I don't know how to "adult"
Just yesterday I was setting up a tea party for all my stuffed animals and dolls, and yet tomorrow I will be responsible for providing food and necessities for my future family and/or at least for myself. Gone are the days of care-free summers spent on the backyard swing set with toes dangling. Gone are the make believe tales of my youth: the countless hours spent playing house, school, bible class, detectives, restaurant, you name it. Gone is the girl who sat on on her dads lap in church because he was her biggest hero and read school books with mom because she ignited a love for learning inside her.
But you know, that little dreamer with the twinkle in her eye and the laugh in her belly. With joy in her heart and a song in her mouth. That stubborn, shy, independent, creative, goody-two-shoes little girl is still within me. As I travel on this journey to discover my purpose as an adult in this scary world, I cannot move on with out acknowledgment of the person God intended for me to be. I am learning that adulthood is not a role switch, but rather a continuation of living life only with added responsibilities and decision making. I am so thankful for all the people close to me in this life and pray that God will guide me through the stormy gales ahead.
Until Next Time,
K.L.E
Just yesterday I was setting up a tea party for all my stuffed animals and dolls, and yet tomorrow I will be responsible for providing food and necessities for my future family and/or at least for myself. Gone are the days of care-free summers spent on the backyard swing set with toes dangling. Gone are the make believe tales of my youth: the countless hours spent playing house, school, bible class, detectives, restaurant, you name it. Gone is the girl who sat on on her dads lap in church because he was her biggest hero and read school books with mom because she ignited a love for learning inside her.
But you know, that little dreamer with the twinkle in her eye and the laugh in her belly. With joy in her heart and a song in her mouth. That stubborn, shy, independent, creative, goody-two-shoes little girl is still within me. As I travel on this journey to discover my purpose as an adult in this scary world, I cannot move on with out acknowledgment of the person God intended for me to be. I am learning that adulthood is not a role switch, but rather a continuation of living life only with added responsibilities and decision making. I am so thankful for all the people close to me in this life and pray that God will guide me through the stormy gales ahead.
Until Next Time,
K.L.E
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